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The kids I have are not "mine" (I married three people 21 years ago), but I could not imagine losing one of them. I think that would be far more devastating than losing a parent. 

Ma fought cancer for almost 20 years, and when I say fight, I mean it. In 2008 she was given 6 months to live. She got a very long 6 months and I'm so proud of her and how she beat it for so damn long.

Depression/anxiety/mental health issues are horrible

tough for the victim to deal with

tough for others - even very close friends and family members to understand

tough for docs to treat effectively

the most frustrating thing for me is the lack of quality options for help and treatment

my daughter suffers and I've often wondered if she would take matters into her own hands and if she would be more at peace if so

very hard to wrap my head around and to deal with

I would give everything I have for a more effective treatment method than simply popping pills

it's kinda corny, but... this song struck home with me.  i'm thinking it's not to be misinterpreted- i don't 'read' it as "no regrets" (which i've always believed to be bull shit of the highest order) but instead of finding peace...

there are two ways of not giving a shit about anything anymore- one way constructive and the other destructive.  the destructive way is obvious, but the constructive way is not near so easy- it only comes with peace and realizing you've done well not only for yourself and loved ones, but others from a five degrees of separation vantage as well.  i can't define, but this song makes it easier to imagine, a peace where you rest knowing all is well and concern is something that's a waste of time.  i wager that's the brass ring that is damn near unobtainable- but worthy of attempt.

the thing about death is the finality of it- again, not in the obvious sense but in the manner that everything a person was, which was fluid and could change at any moment, get's chipped in stone and forever recorded- almost like a reference from that point forward... an example would be asking someone here something and not knowing what the response is going to be, as opposed to thinking about how a person who has passed would respond... the deceased have written their book and it's a matter of record.  the finality of the deceased leaves little room for guessing. i guess i'm saying that a story isn't complete until it's read from beginning to end- too much can change in the final chapters to know the record, but that isn't true for a complete story... the song, i'm thinking, describes a dream or ambition of parting with the comfort of knowing you're story is inspirational instead of foreboding to the observer.  it's said lives are futile like individual grains of sand on the beach- but the same analogy is countered by saying each of those grains has a direct impact on the position of those adjacent, meaning the shift on a far flung beach, however slight, is measurable on some scale.  these passing's, both those expected and records complete as well as those abrupt and startling hardly providing definition at all, each and every one have that shifting effect and each are equally important.  there is no vain in or of life- it's just the stories vary and shift us to the purpose they were intended.   if that is good or bad is a matter of perspective, i reckon.

further corny:  i've posted at every gate into my mental control center a ghost as sentry- and the approach and concept this song presents slipped right past them.  


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tFGs7HP15d4

Thanks for letting "us" share.  This is a great community.  I know back in the day y'all helped me in a way to recover from my deep grief knowing I had these strangers on the Internet who really cared about folks.

The wife is wanting to move to ATL fairly soonish, and we're headed down to check places out.  I think she needs a change in venue.  

So sorry to hear about the recent news, badge and CD.  Prayers and condolences for you.

And also to you typhon, I didn't know, and I can't imagine.

Life is precious, certainly more important than the diversions that originally brought many of us together, but also made interesting and worthwhile by those diversions and the people we meet because of them.

trying to make the place more like 'home' was... slowly but surely... how y'all like the helmets across the top on the message index?  

and.... this is the fastest page i've ever built, now.  check speed at: https://tools.pingdom.com/#!/cQQUGd/https://www.cfb51.com

make sure and use NY or Cali.... it crawls on the overseas servers, but... we don't really trust college football fans from other over there now do we...


there are a few more things i can do to increase it, but the other night i actually had it going too fast... the page was trying to load before the session authentication script could be verified- resulting in a 403:Forbidden page...

if any y'all see that, will ya let me know?

Former Nebraska defensive coordinator Kevin Cosgrove will serve as New Mexico’s acting head coach during Bob Davie’s 30-day suspension.