Yes sorry to hear that jgvol.
My older cousin died in a motorcycle accident when he was 21 and going to UT, I was only 12 or so at the time but he was my favorite cousin and it impacted me quite a bit.
I will never, ever ride a motorcycle on roads that are shared with cars.
I have in the past ridden dirtbikes out on private property in the boonies, which was fun, but I'll never ride on the streets.