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Topic: 2018 Season Stream of Completely Off-Topic Unconsciousness

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Brutus Buckeye

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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #140 on: February 13, 2018, 06:16:50 PM »
Sorry Cincy, that's really rough on a mother. 

My favorite female cousin had a son that did that a few years back, and she recently did the same thing herself. 
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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #141 on: February 13, 2018, 06:36:06 PM »
The kids I have are not "mine" (I married three people 21 years ago), but I could not imagine losing one of them. I think that would be far more devastating than losing a parent. 

Ma fought cancer for almost 20 years, and when I say fight, I mean it. In 2008 she was given 6 months to live. She got a very long 6 months and I'm so proud of her and how she beat it for so damn long.
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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #142 on: February 13, 2018, 06:40:28 PM »
It's over. No more suffering now, for her, me and the family.
Deepest condolences. Everyone grieves differently, make sure while you are helping those you love, you let some of them help you out too.
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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #143 on: February 13, 2018, 06:40:46 PM »
Depression/anxiety/mental health issues are horrible

tough for the victim to deal with

tough for others - even very close friends and family members to understand

tough for docs to treat effectively

the most frustrating thing for me is the lack of quality options for help and treatment

my daughter suffers and I've often wondered if she would take matters into her own hands and if she would be more at peace if so

very hard to wrap my head around and to deal with

I would give everything I have for a more effective treatment method than simply popping pills
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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #144 on: February 13, 2018, 06:48:33 PM »
I'm still trying to come to some kind of understanding about death.  Someone very close to me just died, which is why I had to go to France suddenly.  It still leaves me empty even if it has not been the crushing experience that was the loss of my son, this was my step son.  He had been depressed, and it had spiraled down, and he took matters into his own hands.

The wife, and it was her biological son, tells me he's happier now.  He was in a lot of pain before, I understood that.  I didn't think he was quite there.  His psychiatrist of several years died from cancer and he couldn't find a person he was comfortable with and then quit his meds.

I don't like it.  My parents have passed on, but they were both 93.  I sort of get that.  I just spoke with another man my age whose son just died of a heroin OD.  He was crushed, but said he half expected it at some point.

I keep wondering what I could have done differently.  My step son and I were close but he had just drifted away over the past couple of months.


I don't even know what to say...
Losing my infant son (5 years ago) is definitely the hardest thing I have ever experienced (still experiencing.) If I could scamper through the internet I would give you and your wife the biggest hugs I could right now.
Deepest condolences.
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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #145 on: February 13, 2018, 08:02:58 PM »
it's kinda corny, but... this song struck home with me.  i'm thinking it's not to be misinterpreted- i don't 'read' it as "no regrets" (which i've always believed to be bull shit of the highest order) but instead of finding peace...

there are two ways of not giving a shit about anything anymore- one way constructive and the other destructive.  the destructive way is obvious, but the constructive way is not near so easy- it only comes with peace and realizing you've done well not only for yourself and loved ones, but others from a five degrees of separation vantage as well.  i can't define, but this song makes it easier to imagine, a peace where you rest knowing all is well and concern is something that's a waste of time.  i wager that's the brass ring that is damn near unobtainable- but worthy of attempt.

the thing about death is the finality of it- again, not in the obvious sense but in the manner that everything a person was, which was fluid and could change at any moment, get's chipped in stone and forever recorded- almost like a reference from that point forward... an example would be asking someone here something and not knowing what the response is going to be, as opposed to thinking about how a person who has passed would respond... the deceased have written their book and it's a matter of record.  the finality of the deceased leaves little room for guessing. i guess i'm saying that a story isn't complete until it's read from beginning to end- too much can change in the final chapters to know the record, but that isn't true for a complete story... the song, i'm thinking, describes a dream or ambition of parting with the comfort of knowing you're story is inspirational instead of foreboding to the observer.  it's said lives are futile like individual grains of sand on the beach- but the same analogy is countered by saying each of those grains has a direct impact on the position of those adjacent, meaning the shift on a far flung beach, however slight, is measurable on some scale.  these passing's, both those expected and records complete as well as those abrupt and startling hardly providing definition at all, each and every one have that shifting effect and each are equally important.  there is no vain in or of life- it's just the stories vary and shift us to the purpose they were intended.   if that is good or bad is a matter of perspective, i reckon.

further corny:  i've posted at every gate into my mental control center a ghost as sentry- and the approach and concept this song presents slipped right past them.  


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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #146 on: February 13, 2018, 08:12:51 PM »
i'm sorry for all my friends i should have added- it's something that is a lonely passage... @Cincydawg , @847badgerfan , @TyphonInc ....

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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #147 on: February 13, 2018, 08:16:30 PM »
Thanks for letting "us" share.  This is a great community.  I know back in the day y'all helped me in a way to recover from my deep grief knowing I had these strangers on the Internet who really cared about folks.

The wife is wanting to move to ATL fairly soonish, and we're headed down to check places out.  I think she needs a change in venue.  

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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #148 on: February 13, 2018, 10:06:16 PM »
My condolences, Badge and Cincy.
I thought I settled my debts that night on the ride home
But I have still got hell to pay

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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #149 on: February 13, 2018, 11:07:13 PM »
So sorry to hear about the recent news, badge and CD.  Prayers and condolences for you.

And also to you typhon, I didn't know, and I can't imagine.

Life is precious, certainly more important than the diversions that originally brought many of us together, but also made interesting and worthwhile by those diversions and the people we meet because of them.


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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #150 on: February 14, 2018, 06:15:46 PM »
Thoughts across the internet to both of you, can't imagine what you are dealing with right now.

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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #152 on: February 15, 2018, 09:36:31 PM »
I got the 403 a couple weeks ago, I assumed maintenance

didn't mention it
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Re: 2018 Offseason Stream of Unconsciousness
« Reply #153 on: February 16, 2018, 02:06:06 PM »
Former Nebraska defensive coordinator Kevin Cosgrove will serve as New Mexico’s acting head coach during Bob Davie’s 30-day suspension.
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